So i have done alot of thinking. ive decided this blog is going to be removed, and or not updated for a long time. it triggers me. and sends me into a mental spiral of terrible things. ive eaten depression alive at this point and its affecting my job performance, my performance as an artist, and my will to even get up in the morning. being a blog, reading other blogs, it makes me think... " i must not be skinny enough". i liked life much better when i was in my own little anorexic world, not able to compare myself to other anas. if i do at one time decide to repost i will disable all comments. and write to write. not to see who im writing to.
this has made me hate myself more than id like to admit,
the point in this blog was to feel empowered in myself as an ana, to make me feel strong and independant in my disorder and not open myself to judgement. the point in this blog has officially become mute. its made me weak. and my self confidence at an all time low. I appreciate everyones thoughts and concerns but i will be moving forward in my pro-ana ways. in my own ways.
farewell. i wish you all the best.
sad to see you go but I wish you all the luck with everything!
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If this blog is hurting you it's best to go but you shouldn't let others opinions of how good of an anorexic you are get the best of you. And comparing yourself to others is lose lose but it is a difficult trap to avoid at times. Good luck with whatever you decide.
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