Lately to avoid consumption ive been putting my hunger into painting. it started out as a cherry blossom tree and ended with dripping chocolate. ....delicious.
Ive also been baking.
cupcakes, mainly. Because i really enjoy cupcakes.
not only taste, but they present themselves so beautifully.
ive done really good since i found out about my bloodtest results. My husbands family came and visited this weekend, they eat alot. But i found better things to do (dishes, cleaning, baking, painting...etc.)
I havent weighed myself lately. I dont plan on it anytime soon, I still feel ...puffy fat. until i know that i can look down at that scale and see a beautiful 129 again im going to avoid it. so my stats weekly update weight will not be correct for a while. Im glad im doing so good, however today i did cheat and sneak one of those fluffy cupcakes into my mouth today. But it was worth it, so yummy.
all in all, im happy right now. all of the panic of the world seems to have subsided momentarily and left me at peace. Every dark aera of my life has ended for now, and new ones have yet to begin.
- I have a reliable job right now, steady pay, something im already familiar with, and everyone loves me (so far)
- Period came, relieved alot of hormones.
- Finally settled into the new house, no new worries.
- Our furnace has been broken for a week and my fatherinlaw fixed it yesterday so the house is finally warm again
- I dont feel like every peice of art i execute is the ugliest piece of shit alive
- size 3 pants are starting to feel a little loose
I know that this isnt a calorie-counting-die-to-be-thin post, but those are daily for me. Its nice for a change to almost feel comfortable in my own skin and just "let my hair down" for a while.
You guys comments helped me too, knowing im not alone, and knowing im in your thoughts. it does wonders. thank you guys! :)
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