I feel like life is out to get me. for those who dont backtrack my posts lets give a summary
jan 13th-bought a house (relying on my 12.20 hr pay +commission)
jan 23rd-without warning, and for wrongful reasons, lost my job (including 12.20 hr pay +commission)
jan 24th- score interview with job ACROSS THE STREET from previous job, basically doing same thing for another company
jan 25th- Ace interview, hired on the spot to start monday
Jan 30th- first day of work, going awesome.
Feb somethingoranother- havent had period, PANIC
Feb somethingelseoranother- get blood test for pregnancy, negative
Feb yesterday- finally felt like i was back on my feet
feb 22 (today)- husband gets told he gets to talk to the assistant manager at work tomorrow (the only reason he would do this is to get fired.)
....knocked back on ass....
2012 is out to get me. Its given me every reason to hate everything.
SO.
i hate my life
i hate my weight
i hate my luck
and im about to collapse into dust from all the stress and anxiety
and to make it all worse my husbands being all sneaky in making my eat by getting mcdonalds( THE WORST POSSIBLE THING) so that he can act like "i paid money for that, dont waste it".
needless to say i will not be posting a calorie count for today.
just imagine fries (tried giving as much as i could to the dogs)
5mcnuggets(no sauce)
3cups broccoli steamed, peppered, and like.... a tiny square of butter (i couldnt help myself, my stomach stretched from all the icky micky Ds)
and an energy drink and a chai frappaccino
lard
anyway, thats my update. Im going to go take out my frustrations on ...something else. not sure what yet.
am so sorry you are going through a rough patch...but i believe it will pass darling...2012 didnt start so well for me either but giving up takes more energy than just surviving i think...take it one day at a time, and if thats too much, take it an hour at a time..xx
ReplyDelete2012 has suckd for me too. But think of it this way, it has got 10 months to redeem itself.
ReplyDeleteWhenever someone trys to guilt me into food because they paid money for it I tell them to eat it then, I didn't ask for it, thus I didn't want it, and if it goes to waste that is there problem that they wasted money. Of course, I'm not scared of being labeled a bitch, so this advice may not work for you. :)
The only good thing about bad luck and having everything bad that happen could is that at some point it can't get much worse and the only place to go is up. I do hope it's nothing bad with your hubby's job.
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