Officially into my third no menstruation week. :/ Panic, fear, anxiety. Its attacked me in every angle. But the other day ( as well as a little bit today ) i keep feeling flutters in my stomach. Flutters of movement. Wishful thinking? Muscle spasms? We will find out tomorrow. Saturday-today i have eaten like a normal person. My calorie intake was around 2000 per day im sure.But here's why... I have this feeling. This gut feeling that someone is in there. Some little darling girl. So tomorrow, 9.am, i have an appointment to get a blood test. The entire pregnancy of my mom for my brother and i both she had nothing but false negatives with urinary assessments. Because its genetic that we have low hcg levels i wanted to be safe and make sure. I have not had a period since December 24th. We are 2 months into the new year with nothing.I get the cramps but i dont get the blood, ( ive read it can be due to the uterus expanding) Its going to suck... havening to eat to keep another life alive, as i am no murderer. But i need some joy. Some sort of awesome to happen. Im going to feel like the biggest loser if i go and its negative (a. because im positive its pregnancy, b. because that would lead me to believe that i have an issue with my thyroid which is also a genetic issue that my family tends to have, my mother underwent radiation treatment for it when i was young.) ill probably cry either way, because im a loser.
i promise i will update whats happened the past 3 days tomorrow, for now? Ill try to rest.
I hope everything turns out ok...meaning if your pregnant that the baby is healthy and that you can make it through the pregnancy and that if your not that there isnt anything else wrong keeping you from menstrating. :/ best of luck I look forward to reading the results. sending best wishes your way
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