Quick update before work. It feels amazing to be empty lately. Yesterday was another restriction success. Im getting very satisfied with how simple this is. I feel like the ana inside me is back. I so easily slid into the same pattern as when 98 lbs was my normal weight. I am obsessed. Weight controls every aspect of my day. What clothes I wear. What my mood is. Today is a day full of sunshine and starvation. And man, it feels good.
I may just never eat again. Ever. This feeling of clean. It's empowering. I never noticed. But its all i ever want. It is my entire meaning. :) and i feel so awesome knowing that.
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Glad to see your mood is good. You havent posted in a while I hope all is well.
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