I LIED.

sorry, i finally got some privacy before bed and reread my last post and recognized the original point i was going to make, quick update.


Im terrified of letting ana take over. but im also terrified that it wont.
Im at least making progress now, today at a "full" (only that green smoothie which was a cup and a half) i was 130 even. (for some reason lately ive been around 131/132 which is OBNOXIOUS) i cannot wait til im back down to 100lbs... id go back to 98 if i wouldnt be institutionalized for it, but my husbands made very clear that weight is a no-no and i will experience much more than a slap on the wrist if i get down that far. I havent told him my intentions lately. he knows im trying to lose weight, he sees how unsatisfied DISGUSTED I am with myself lately... maybe he will turn a blind eye. ok, last post. goodnight!